摘要：Hello你好I'm Lucy我叫露西my life has been divided between two houses我的生活分成了两个家but I never thought I would become an employee in one of t

Hello

你好

I'm Lucy

我叫露西

my life has been divided between two houses

我的生活分成了两个家

but I never thought I would become an employee in one of them

但我从没想过我会成为他们中的一员

and this fact makes me feel constantly exhausted

而这个事实让我感到不断的疲惫

My parents have been divorced for a long time

我父母已经离婚很长时间了

me and my older sister stayed with my mom based on the court's decision

根据法院的判决，我和我姐姐与我妈妈住在一起

but my dad was also allowed to spend a lot of time with both of us

但我爸爸也被允许和我们俩一起度过很多时间

that's why we used to spend like half of our weekends and holidays at my dad's place

这就是为什么我们过去有一半的周末和假期是在我爸爸那里度过的

I love both of my parents equally

我对父母的爱是平等的

but honestly speaking

不过，老实说

my dad's temper is pretty terrible

我父亲的脾气很坏

sometimes we'd have days where he would just yell and punish me and my sister

有时候我们会有几天他会大叫惩罚我和我妹妹

whenever we did the littlest thing wrong

无论何时我们做了最小的错事

I'll give you a vivid example

我给你举个生动的例子

once we were spending Halloween with my dad

有次我们和我爸爸一起过万圣节

we had been working on making our costumes for an entire day and had gotten really hungry

我们花了整整一天的时间来制作我们的服装，我们真的饿了

there was almost nothing in the Fridge and my sister Annie decided she wanted to order a Pizza

冰箱里几乎什么也没有，我姐姐安妮决定要一份比萨饼

she asked dad if that was OK

她问爸爸这样好不好

but he said no for no actual reason

但他毫无理由的拒绝了

he suggested that we cooked something on our own

他建议我们自己做点什么

but we didn't want to and we were really in the mood for Pizza

但是我们不想吃，我们真的很想吃比萨

especially since it was a holiday

尤其是因为那是个假日

Dad went crazy

爸爸发疯了

he yelled at us and locked us in our room with no actual dinner

他对我们大吼大叫，把我们锁在房间里，没有真正的晚餐

and of course with no Tricker treating

当然也不会有什么诡计

so we stayed hungry and totally upset until the next day

所以我们一直饿着直到第二天

since then

从那以后

neither I nor Annie were big fans of Hallowe'En any longer

我和安妮都不再是万圣节的忠实粉丝了

dad was not always that bad

爸爸也不总是那么坏

but since Annie is five years older than me

但是因为安妮比我大五岁

she would be punished more often

她会受到更多的惩罚

at some point when she got big enough

当她长大的时候

she said that she wanted to live with my mom permanently and no longer visit our dad

她说她想永远和我妈妈住在一起，不想再去看望我们的爸爸

but I couldn't do the same and I probably didn't want to

但我不能做同样的事我可能也不想

Daza dad's house started to be even less fun without Annie

没有安妮，爸爸的房子变得更无趣了

I mean I had some friends from the neighbouring houses there

我是说我有几个邻居的朋友

but I wasn't supposed to play with them all day long

但我不应该整天和他们玩

because dad would say he wanted to spend time with me

因为爸爸会说他想和我在一起

but we'd usually end up watching sports on TV

但我们通常都会在电视上看体育节目

while he was trying to teach me about different teams and coaches and players and stuff

当他在教我不同的球队教练球员等等的时候

I can't say that I was totally unhappy because I still had my dad next me in my life

我不能说我完全不快乐，因为在我的生命中还有我的父亲在身边

then my dad married Julia

后来我爸爸娶了茱莉亚

she was not bad actually

她其实并不坏

but we barely Interacted with each other

但我们很少互相影响

because she was pretty busy with all of our trips to the beauty salon

因为我们去美容院的路上她都很忙

yoga classes and Zumba dancing

瑜伽课和尊巴舞

A few months later

几个月后

my dad called me into the room and said that my Stepmo was pregnant

我爸爸把我叫进房间，说我的Stepmo怀孕了

and that I was going to have a little brother or sister

我将会有一个弟弟或妹妹

that was great news for me because I always wanted to have a younger Sibling

这对我来说是个好消息，因为我一直想有一个更年轻的兄弟姐妹

I was really excited about that

我真的很兴奋

and even promised that I'd take care of the baby when he or she was born

他甚至承诺我会在他或她出生时照顾好孩子

what made me speak up

是什么让我说出来

I still have no idea

我还是不知道

Now with a new wife and a baby on the way

现在有一个新的妻子和一个即将出生的孩子

dad was working all day long

爸爸整天都在工作

even while I was visiting him

即使在我去看他的时候

that's when Julia would start to watch me while he was at work

就在那时茱莉亚开始在他工作的时候看着我

her pregnancy made her really big

她怀孕使她变得很胖

so I had to help her with cooking

所以我得帮她做饭

Dish-Washing

餐具清洗

House cleaning and other stuff

打扫房间之类的

at first I thought it was really hard for her to do all the

一开始我觉得对她来说做所有的

housework

做家务

but then I realized she was just using me

但后来我意识到她只是在利用我

so that she could chat with her friends or read some parenting magazines in her room

这样她就可以和朋友聊天，或者在房间里看一些育儿杂志

while I was Slaving away downstairs

我在楼下忙得不可开交

I tried to complain to my dad about the situation

我试着向我爸爸抱怨这个情况

but he was totally on Julia's side

但他完全站在茱莉亚一边

he'd even taken away my phone so that nothing would disturb me from being her assistant

他甚至拿走了我的手机，这样我就不会因为做她的助手而受到打扰了

things didn't change much when my little brother was born

我弟弟出生时，一切都没什么变化

except that now

不过，现在

in addition

另外

from cooking

从烹饪中

cleaning

清洁

shopping and bringing groceries up the stairs for my step mom

为我继母买东西和提东西

I also had a baby sit my baby brother while she was resting

我也有一个婴儿照看我的小弟弟，而她正在休息

I literally felt deprived and had zero fun that summer

那年夏天，我真的觉得自己很穷，一点乐趣都没有

The final straw came when my dad took me out to eat

当我爸爸带我出去吃饭时,我忍无可忍了

and invited me to come live with him and Julia permanently

邀请我和他还有茱莉亚一起住一辈子

you know

你知道

I can't say that

我不能这么说

I was surprised because a couple of times I remembered Julia telling him

我很惊讶因为有几次我记得茱莉亚告诉他

that she couldn't live without my help when I'd go back home

当我回家的时候她不能没有我的帮助

and now if I lived with them

如果我现在和他们住在一起

dad wouldn't have to pay my mom any child's support and he would get free labor

爸爸不需要支付我妈妈任何孩子的抚养费，他可以得到免费的劳动

I was confused and promised to think over his suggestion

我感到困惑,答应仔细考虑他的建议

I just couldn't refuse him right there face to face

我只是不能当面拒绝他

because he'd probably get mad at me and I didn't want to piss him off

因为他可能会生我的气而我不想惹他生气

Besides

另外

I got into really deep thought about my little brother

我深深地想着我的弟弟

and I was afraid that my dad's bad temper would ruin our times together

我担心我爸爸的坏脾气会毁了我们在一起的时光

so you know

所以你知道

having to think about all these things was tearing me apart inside

不得不考虑所有这些事情，把我的内心撕裂

When I went to visit my dad and his family again

当我再次去看望我爸爸和他的家人时

they were sort of expecting me or rather my decision

他们一定程度上期待着我，或者更确切地说，我的决定

it was going to take all my will to man up and say that I was going to stay with my mom

我要用我全部的意志来鼓起勇气说我要和我妈妈呆在一起

and I knew that my dad would be upset

我知道我爸爸会不高兴

I would love to think that he was sorry that I wouldn't live with him because he'd Miss my presence

我希望他能为我不能和他住在一起而感到遗憾，因为他错过了我的到来

but I couldn't shake the thought that he was thinking about the Misopportunity

但我无法摆脱他在考虑“错失良机”的想法

to have free slave labor

有自由的奴隶劳动

and this really hurt my feelings

这真的伤了我的感情

also

另外

my sister had told me to be brave

我姐姐告诉我要勇敢

and to speak of what was the worst thing that would happen if I did

说到如果我这么做会发生的最糟糕的事情

I thought

我以为

That's why I told dad that I didn't want to spend my time there as just a worker

这就是为什么我告诉爸爸我不想仅仅作为一个工人在那里工作

but I wanted to have fun with him because I missed him

但我想和他一起玩因为我想他

and this was true

这是真的

dad said nothing and I spent my time there pretty much the same way as I did before

爸爸什么也没说，我在那里度过的时光和以前差不多

except for one thing

除了一件事

he had started to sort of pay me for my efforts

他开始对我的努力有所回报

it was like a couple of bucks for ironing clothes

就像是几块钱烫衣服一样

five bucks for cleaning the house

打扫房子5美元

and five more if I managed to cook something extra

如果我多做点东西再多做五个

it was odd and I didn't know how to deal with it

这很奇怪，我不知道该怎么处理

I wish I could say that my story has a happy ending

我希望我能说我的故事有一个幸福的结局

but it

但它

doesn't

不会的

at least things didn't get worse

至少事情没有变得更糟

it's been three months already of me playing that waiting game

三个月来我一直在玩等待游戏

I still continue to visit my dad

我还是会去看我爸爸

and he still keeps giving me money instead of parental love and affection

他仍然给我钱，而不是父母的爱

but as my sister told me recently

但正如我姐姐最近告诉我的

at least I have the ability to earn some money

至少我有能力挣一些钱

and dad has gotten a little calmer and no longer Yells at me

爸爸变得更冷静了，不再对我大喊大叫了

来源：播得英语